Day 1: The feels of excitement but at the same wanted to avoid him.
When you recognize that he makes your heart flutter.
Monday: First day of work week. As expected you will see him. I was waiting for the first hour no one pass by. Second hour and took our first break. As frustrated my energy start to went down when suddenly I turned around I saw him at the pantry without me noticing that he was there for a minute already maybe I was focus to my energy. I can’t explain the feeling but it was a mix of being nervous and being excited like in tagalog term ‘ XET KILIG‘ I swear. I’m trying to replay it and I am still getting the kilig. He sat beside me one chair apart and it feels like I am frozen for that whole moment. Since I really felt awkward that I wanted to escape the moment so fast but I can’t and just living the moment.
He didn’t visit our bay as often as he will be previously that’s why I started to get worried that day honestly but before our works end we shared laughter together.
Day 2: Happy Jealousy..
All of a sudden why I am getting some airs of jealousy.
And this is the very first day I felt jealous of my team mate that he’s comfortable being with. Before this feeling it was a normal thing for me that he would go to our bay and doing chit chat to everyone except to me I swear that doesn’t affect me at all. But I guess this is one of signs that I have a lil bit of feelings for him that I can’t stand watching him talking to others and not including me..
But guess what… After doing his chit chats he was trying his best to make kulit with me and my response is so OA promise without efforts I would laugh to single silly things his saying. We enjoyed laughing together even we have the same topic about our routines in gym. I guess that’s our reason for us to laugh so hard.
And the highlight guess what talagang kinulit nya ko. Like he was asking me to do 3 squats s office and kahit parang tanga lang yung pinagawa niya grabe tawa niya sympre kunware tanga tangahan din ako. I will not forget this moment when I said ” Oh boss gawen mo muna tatlong squat” ginawa nmn nya.. Hahaha nakakatawa hahaha.
Again we will not end the day without a good laugh…
Day 3: Starting to miss him...
I don’t know why I felt something is missing in my day.
He didn’t went to office and I felt missing him.
Day 4: Why I feel so nervous in front of you.
I am starting to be conscious of my gestures.
I know that I will be seeing you today and every time we are enclosed in a situation I felt trembling and so conscious of myself in front of you even the situation doesn’t need it. The feels that at point second I will be seeing you gets my nervousness on a highest level not because I am afraid or what but I felt something exciting inside my body and the rest is history.
Seeing you laughing is my happiness.
Day 5: Simple things makes my heart flutter.
Kind gestures means a lot to me.
We suddenly have those own moments together which I am not expecting. The day when you just want to have an accompany and chances it was me. We get along that moment and almost forgot your my one up. Stories, laughter, gaze through your eyes and simple gestures makes me feel warm inside. I caught you putting food in my plate and when I am trying to walk behind, you are making sure I wont be left behind and you tap the other side of my elbow. Thank you.
Day 6: We have all the time in this world
I think time is the most valuable thing we can share together.
I was not expecting that I will be spending my Saturday’s with you neither you I bet but I thinks it is fate brought us to that moment. I saw you far different from the everyday in the office. I saw somehow rawness of you every time I look at you. You said its your first time to go to that place and I feel pleased to be with you at that moment. Your like a child that anytime you will be lost and when I look at you from behind I can’t help but to smile. And when we both zoned out already that’s the moment I love the most. That moment that we don’t care how close the distance of our body as long we are sleeping comfortably at the bus. That breaks probably the wall I’m building with you long time. I felt so secure during that moment and that’s very far different feeling as you as my boss.
Day 7: It is just us.
Moments we can owned together.
Sharing a piece of yourself to me is priceless. I didn’t expect at this point in time that we will be having some moments like when we are driving home wherein you can freely talk about your day. You also entrusted me a story that really touch my heart on how you end up to what you are now today. You are gold. I hope I can end up to have someone who is just like you. I know it is impossible to end up to you but if god permits so I wanted to love someone who can stood up with their values in life and not afraid to take risk at any point of their lives.
One week was positively overwhelming to know your soul. I feel so grateful to have our paths crossed. Whatever happens to our own lives I want to say thank you for touching my life.
Baby you are Gold. Stay Gold.